We found out on Thursday that my husband will lose his job in two weeks. It pretty much sucks. But, we aren't the only ones going through this. We have a few weeks to try to get things together, to try to find him a job. We can obviously draw unemployment. I have a job and benefits. We will be okay. But, it's still a crappy situation.
Life isn't supposed to be easy, but I wish it were a little easier sometimes. I just want things to go my way for once. I don't want to worry about money. I don't want to worry about buying clothes for my baby who is growing like a weed. I don't want to have to turn down a dinner out with my friends because that $20 will buy a container of formula. I never get time out with my friends, and now I'm really not going to get time out with them. But, I will not sacrifice anything for Jack.
Ugh, it just sucks.
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Nine Months
Jack Ryan, you are nine months old today! What are you up to these days?
You weigh about 21 pounds (we will get the exact weight at your doctor's appointment on Tuesday)
You are getting tall! You have a very long torso like your grandma Diane.
You LOVE to eat "people" food. You are very interested in everything that people around you are eating. You sit there like a little bird with your mouth hanging open until we give you whatever we have. I have not found a single thing that you will not eat.
Because of your interest in food, you have very little interest in your bottles. You still eat them, but sometimes it is a struggle to get you to finish them.
You have no interest in crawling so I'm pretty sure you will just start walking.
You are currently in a very needy stage. You want to be entertained...you don't like to just sit and play by yourself.
My favorite thing this month...you have learned to clap!! It is the cutest thing that I have ever seen! You clap at everything! I love it!
You are also very good at saying "hi" and you even say "hi Jack" when you see yourself. It is the cutest thing...I don't have a clue how you learned that, but "Jack" comes out "ack" and is pretty easy for babies to say (it was one of your cousin Rory's first words and your cousin Ava loves to say it). It's very cute though!
Your laugh is the sweetest sound in the world.
I love you so much! I can't believe you are 9 months old! I guess it's time to start thinking about a birthday party for my little man. May will be here before we know it!
You weigh about 21 pounds (we will get the exact weight at your doctor's appointment on Tuesday)
You are getting tall! You have a very long torso like your grandma Diane.
You LOVE to eat "people" food. You are very interested in everything that people around you are eating. You sit there like a little bird with your mouth hanging open until we give you whatever we have. I have not found a single thing that you will not eat.
Because of your interest in food, you have very little interest in your bottles. You still eat them, but sometimes it is a struggle to get you to finish them.
You have no interest in crawling so I'm pretty sure you will just start walking.
You are currently in a very needy stage. You want to be entertained...you don't like to just sit and play by yourself.
My favorite thing this month...you have learned to clap!! It is the cutest thing that I have ever seen! You clap at everything! I love it!
You are also very good at saying "hi" and you even say "hi Jack" when you see yourself. It is the cutest thing...I don't have a clue how you learned that, but "Jack" comes out "ack" and is pretty easy for babies to say (it was one of your cousin Rory's first words and your cousin Ava loves to say it). It's very cute though!
Your laugh is the sweetest sound in the world.
I love you so much! I can't believe you are 9 months old! I guess it's time to start thinking about a birthday party for my little man. May will be here before we know it!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Fear
I wish that fear didn't overcome me all the time. I am afraid of everything. Okay, when I say everything, I don't actually mean everything. I'm not afraid of spiders, or water, or heights. I'm afraid of things that I can't control...like someone I love dying. I'm not one of those people that is afraid of dying herself (well, more on that in a minute). I'm more afraid of being left behind if one of my loved ones were to die.
Ever since I have had Jack, my fear has reached an all time high. I worry about everything! I worry that he isn't eating enough, that he's eating too much, that he has a fever, that he isn't sleeping enough, that he isn't reaching milestones when someone else says he should. But, most of all, I worry about what would happen if he had to grow up without me.
This has been constantly on my mind for about two weeks. You see, I am leaving for a conference in Boston on Friday. I will be gone from Friday morning until Wednesday morning. I have cried nearly every day thinking about my sweet baby boy. I am sad about leaving him, but I am freaking out about flying. I hate flying in general. I have always had a fear of flying (okay, not the flying part...the possibility of plummeting from the sky).
I just want to have a safe trip and to get safely back to my house to hug that baby boy. I hate letting fear overtake my life. I'm trying not to let it, but I have to say, I'm not being very successful. But, how can you not want to get home to this sweet face??
Ever since I have had Jack, my fear has reached an all time high. I worry about everything! I worry that he isn't eating enough, that he's eating too much, that he has a fever, that he isn't sleeping enough, that he isn't reaching milestones when someone else says he should. But, most of all, I worry about what would happen if he had to grow up without me.
This has been constantly on my mind for about two weeks. You see, I am leaving for a conference in Boston on Friday. I will be gone from Friday morning until Wednesday morning. I have cried nearly every day thinking about my sweet baby boy. I am sad about leaving him, but I am freaking out about flying. I hate flying in general. I have always had a fear of flying (okay, not the flying part...the possibility of plummeting from the sky).
I just want to have a safe trip and to get safely back to my house to hug that baby boy. I hate letting fear overtake my life. I'm trying not to let it, but I have to say, I'm not being very successful. But, how can you not want to get home to this sweet face??
Monday, February 8, 2010
Eight Months
Jack Ryan...you are 8 months old. Okay, you have been 8 months old for over two weeks...mom is just really slow with the posts! What are you up to these days?
You wear size 9 month pants and mostly size 12 month onesies. You have a very long torso!
You sit up on your own, but sometimes you forget to catch yourself when you fall backwards!
You have absolutely no interest in crawling! We are pretty sure you will go straight to walking!
You say "hi" all the time. You especially like to say hi to your cousin Rory.
Speaking of Rory, you are obsessed with him! You think he is the best. He is 11 weeks older than you. You two spend lots of time with Papa and Go Go during the week. He is teaching you all sorts of bad habits...like how to hit mommy. We hope that maybe you will learn to walk from him too.
You absolutely love "people" food. We haven't found anything that you won't eat yet. Current favorites include cheerios, mashed potatoes, french fries, hamburgers, chicken, and avocado. You sit there with your mouth open like a little bird until we put something in it!
You are a horrible nap taker. You take a short nap in the morning and a short nap in the afternoon. It's really hard for mom to get anything done when you won't sleep! I can't complain though, because you sleep for over 12 hours at night.
You now have six teeth! Four on the top and two on the bottom. The four on the top all came in at once. That was a very rough week for all of us! Poor baby!
Your monthly photo shoots are getting interesting...you refuse to leave the sign alone!
I can usually get one photo out of the group where you smile!
And, your hair is getting crazy! You can have a little mohawk.
You wear size 9 month pants and mostly size 12 month onesies. You have a very long torso!
You sit up on your own, but sometimes you forget to catch yourself when you fall backwards!
You have absolutely no interest in crawling! We are pretty sure you will go straight to walking!
You say "hi" all the time. You especially like to say hi to your cousin Rory.
Speaking of Rory, you are obsessed with him! You think he is the best. He is 11 weeks older than you. You two spend lots of time with Papa and Go Go during the week. He is teaching you all sorts of bad habits...like how to hit mommy. We hope that maybe you will learn to walk from him too.
You absolutely love "people" food. We haven't found anything that you won't eat yet. Current favorites include cheerios, mashed potatoes, french fries, hamburgers, chicken, and avocado. You sit there with your mouth open like a little bird until we put something in it!
You are a horrible nap taker. You take a short nap in the morning and a short nap in the afternoon. It's really hard for mom to get anything done when you won't sleep! I can't complain though, because you sleep for over 12 hours at night.
You now have six teeth! Four on the top and two on the bottom. The four on the top all came in at once. That was a very rough week for all of us! Poor baby!
Your monthly photo shoots are getting interesting...you refuse to leave the sign alone!
I can usually get one photo out of the group where you smile!
And, your hair is getting crazy! You can have a little mohawk.
Monday, January 4, 2010
Not me Monday
Welcome to Not Me! Monday! This blog carnival was created by MckMama. You can head over to her blog to read what she and everyone else have not been doing this week.
I surely would never stick my seven month old in a basket because he was unhappy with everything else in the world.
Nope...not me.
And I definitely wouldn't leave him in there for a half an hour because he was so happy.
I would never do that!
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Sadness at the holidays
This past weekend, a woman that I vaguely knew and her husband were killed in a car accident. She was the editor of the student newspaper at the college that I work for a few years ago. I didn't really know her at all...more that I knew of her. It was just so sad to me because I learned that she and her husband have a little boy not much older than Jack. I sat on my couch and cried just thinking about that poor little boy that will have to grow up not knowing his parents. That led me to think about Jack...how much I love him...how much I want to teach him...and how much I want to watch him grow up and turn into a wonderful person. I was so devastated just thinking about him growing up without me or his daddy.
So, as I prepare for my first Christmas with Jack, I am praying for the family of these two young people that were taken much too soon from this world. I hope that you will all hug your children tonight and remember to take each day as if it will be your last. Sorry to be a downer right before Christmas! It's just something I wanted to write about.
So, as I prepare for my first Christmas with Jack, I am praying for the family of these two young people that were taken much too soon from this world. I hope that you will all hug your children tonight and remember to take each day as if it will be your last. Sorry to be a downer right before Christmas! It's just something I wanted to write about.
Monday, December 21, 2009
Seven Months
Jack Ryan...you are seven months old! I can hardly believe it!
So, other than grabbing your sign and not letting mom take your picture, what are you up to this month?
You wear mainly 9 month clothes, but some of your sleepers are 12 months.
You are now the proud owner of two teeth! The second just poked through! I guess you will have your two front teeth for Christmas!
You are still not completely able to sit on your own, but you are getting very close.
You have no interest in rolling from your back to your stomach. You hate being on your stomach, so why would you want to go onto it?
You love to watch Wheel of Fortune! It cracks mommy and daddy up! You get so excited when it comes on!
You have started to eat baby yogurt at breakfast and having a snack each afternoon. You really like yogurt melts and puffs.
You have had some tastes of "people food" lately. You have had mashed potatoes, sweet potato, a bite of hamburger, and french fries. We won't mention the little tastes of cool whip and pudding we have teased you with too. On Christmas you will get your first taste of turkey!
You are definitely starting to play with your toys more. You love anything that plays music or has lights.
You really like looking at the Christmas tree and all of the Christmas lights that are up right now!
You still go to sleep between 6:30PM and 7:00PM every night and sleep until at least 7:00AM. You happily stay in your crib and babble for another 15-25 minutes until we are ready to get you up.
You have now had two ear infections and are currently taking medicine to avoid a third...your right ear is nice and red...we are trying to avoid a Christmas trip to the ER, so the doctor went ahead and gave you an antibiotic.
You aren't sure what you think of naps. You typically take a nap in the morning (not that long after you get up) and then you eat your breakfast of either oatmeal or yogurt. You then sometimes decide you need another morning snooze after playing for a while. Other times, you stay awake until time for your afternoon nap.
I am pretty sure that your daddy is your favorite person right now.
When I go to pick you up from your crib in the morning, you give me this big grin and kind of yell a little. It's like you are saying good morning to me. Then, when I pick you up, you put your hands on either side of my face and just smile at me. It's like you are saying "well hello mommy, let me take a good look at you." It honestly is my favorite part of the day!
You are honestly a very good baby. You are mellow most of the time...you don't cry that often.
You are pretty spoiled by your grandparents and parents!
We can't wait to see you open presents on Christmas!
We love you very much!
Apparently paper is very tasty!
You really wanted that sign...no matter where we put it!
So, other than grabbing your sign and not letting mom take your picture, what are you up to this month?
You wear mainly 9 month clothes, but some of your sleepers are 12 months.
You are now the proud owner of two teeth! The second just poked through! I guess you will have your two front teeth for Christmas!
You are still not completely able to sit on your own, but you are getting very close.
You have no interest in rolling from your back to your stomach. You hate being on your stomach, so why would you want to go onto it?
You love to watch Wheel of Fortune! It cracks mommy and daddy up! You get so excited when it comes on!
You have started to eat baby yogurt at breakfast and having a snack each afternoon. You really like yogurt melts and puffs.
You have had some tastes of "people food" lately. You have had mashed potatoes, sweet potato, a bite of hamburger, and french fries. We won't mention the little tastes of cool whip and pudding we have teased you with too. On Christmas you will get your first taste of turkey!
You are definitely starting to play with your toys more. You love anything that plays music or has lights.
You really like looking at the Christmas tree and all of the Christmas lights that are up right now!
You still go to sleep between 6:30PM and 7:00PM every night and sleep until at least 7:00AM. You happily stay in your crib and babble for another 15-25 minutes until we are ready to get you up.
You have now had two ear infections and are currently taking medicine to avoid a third...your right ear is nice and red...we are trying to avoid a Christmas trip to the ER, so the doctor went ahead and gave you an antibiotic.
You aren't sure what you think of naps. You typically take a nap in the morning (not that long after you get up) and then you eat your breakfast of either oatmeal or yogurt. You then sometimes decide you need another morning snooze after playing for a while. Other times, you stay awake until time for your afternoon nap.
I am pretty sure that your daddy is your favorite person right now.
When I go to pick you up from your crib in the morning, you give me this big grin and kind of yell a little. It's like you are saying good morning to me. Then, when I pick you up, you put your hands on either side of my face and just smile at me. It's like you are saying "well hello mommy, let me take a good look at you." It honestly is my favorite part of the day!
You are honestly a very good baby. You are mellow most of the time...you don't cry that often.
You are pretty spoiled by your grandparents and parents!
We can't wait to see you open presents on Christmas!
We love you very much!
Apparently paper is very tasty!
You really wanted that sign...no matter where we put it!
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
A Conversation...
My husband and I sometimes have the most random conversations. And sometimes I forget how funny my husband can be.
On Sunday, we were sitting in our living room playing with the baby and watching TV. A story about Tiger Woods came on (is anyone else sick of hearing about Tiger and his many, many transgressions?). They were talking about his decision to take a break from golf indefinitely. However, some very funny writer for "Weekend Today" decided to make the headline a little comical.
I didn't pay the story any attention until my husband starts laughing hysterically.
Barely able to speak, he stammers, "Look...at...the...TV..."
Before I can even look, he yells "Tiger Pulls Out....Tiger Pulls Out...HA HA HA HA HA!"
Apparently the Today Show decided it was a good idea to title this particular story "Tiger Pulls Out" (no pun intended, I'm sure!).
My husband thought this was the funniest thing he had ever heard or seen. So, I decide to humor him and laugh a little too. It really is true, men never really get past an eighth graders mentality, do they?
On Sunday, we were sitting in our living room playing with the baby and watching TV. A story about Tiger Woods came on (is anyone else sick of hearing about Tiger and his many, many transgressions?). They were talking about his decision to take a break from golf indefinitely. However, some very funny writer for "Weekend Today" decided to make the headline a little comical.
I didn't pay the story any attention until my husband starts laughing hysterically.
Barely able to speak, he stammers, "Look...at...the...TV..."
Before I can even look, he yells "Tiger Pulls Out....Tiger Pulls Out...HA HA HA HA HA!"
Apparently the Today Show decided it was a good idea to title this particular story "Tiger Pulls Out" (no pun intended, I'm sure!).
My husband thought this was the funniest thing he had ever heard or seen. So, I decide to humor him and laugh a little too. It really is true, men never really get past an eighth graders mentality, do they?
Monday, December 14, 2009
Being Green...a slight rant.
Let me start this post by saying that I have nothing against the "be green" movement and the idea of saving our planet for future generations. I am absolutely for all of that. With that being said, let me begin.
It's Christmastime. This is one of my favorite times of the year! I love Christmas music. I love putting up my Christmas tree. I love driving through neighborhoods and looking at Christmas lights. I love buying gifts for the people that I love. I love sharing this season with my baby boy. And, I absolutely love getting Christmas cards! Kelly over at Kelly's Korner was talking about this last week. I adore going to the mailbox, opening it up, and seeing those green, red, white, and gold envelopes peeking out at me. It's such a welcome respite from all the bills, junk mail, and catalogs that I receive on a daily basis.
This year, however, I noticed that I was receiving fewer Christmas cards. I thought to myself, "well, people are busy, maybe they are just running late with getting the cards out this year." Then I started getting some emails. People would say "we are trying to be "green" this year, so we are sending out an email newsletter or card." I literally got ten of these over the weekend. As I mentioned previously, I'm all for saving the planet, and for being green to a certain extent. I recycle. I think before I print an email or a document. However, I will not stop sending Christmas cards because I want to save the planet. One family indicated that they didn't send an actual card because her husband had lost his job and they simply couldn't afford the postage. That, my friends, is completely understandable. But the other nine...well...I was slightly annoyed. This is literally putting a damper on my holiday. I actually keep all the Christmas cards that I receive in a box with all my Christmas stuff. Then when I get all that stuff out, I have all the previous years cards to look at (and to remember who sent me a card that year that I might otherwise forget. I mean, not that I don't love my husband's great aunt so and so, but I have never met the woman! I might not remember to put her name on the Christmas card list). I also keep all the envelopes so that I have their addresses handy.
With all this email business, how am I supposed to keep track, dang it?? I guess what this comes down to is that I don't like change! I was telling my mom about this over the weekend, and she just laughed at me. I'm a major techie...I love to have the newest items as soon as they come out! I usually get behind anything technological. But, in this case, I just can't do it!
Thoughts? How do you feel about e-Christmas cards??
It's Christmastime. This is one of my favorite times of the year! I love Christmas music. I love putting up my Christmas tree. I love driving through neighborhoods and looking at Christmas lights. I love buying gifts for the people that I love. I love sharing this season with my baby boy. And, I absolutely love getting Christmas cards! Kelly over at Kelly's Korner was talking about this last week. I adore going to the mailbox, opening it up, and seeing those green, red, white, and gold envelopes peeking out at me. It's such a welcome respite from all the bills, junk mail, and catalogs that I receive on a daily basis.
This year, however, I noticed that I was receiving fewer Christmas cards. I thought to myself, "well, people are busy, maybe they are just running late with getting the cards out this year." Then I started getting some emails. People would say "we are trying to be "green" this year, so we are sending out an email newsletter or card." I literally got ten of these over the weekend. As I mentioned previously, I'm all for saving the planet, and for being green to a certain extent. I recycle. I think before I print an email or a document. However, I will not stop sending Christmas cards because I want to save the planet. One family indicated that they didn't send an actual card because her husband had lost his job and they simply couldn't afford the postage. That, my friends, is completely understandable. But the other nine...well...I was slightly annoyed. This is literally putting a damper on my holiday. I actually keep all the Christmas cards that I receive in a box with all my Christmas stuff. Then when I get all that stuff out, I have all the previous years cards to look at (and to remember who sent me a card that year that I might otherwise forget. I mean, not that I don't love my husband's great aunt so and so, but I have never met the woman! I might not remember to put her name on the Christmas card list). I also keep all the envelopes so that I have their addresses handy.
With all this email business, how am I supposed to keep track, dang it?? I guess what this comes down to is that I don't like change! I was telling my mom about this over the weekend, and she just laughed at me. I'm a major techie...I love to have the newest items as soon as they come out! I usually get behind anything technological. But, in this case, I just can't do it!
Thoughts? How do you feel about e-Christmas cards??
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
the post in which I realize I am an awful blogger
I guess that I am just not cut out for this blogging thing! I can't seem to post once a week...let alone once a day! I'm not sure how some of my favorite bloggers do it! They have families and jobs, yet they still find time to post on a daily basis. It's amazing to me!
I guess I really don't feel like I have anything to say that would be of interest to anyone. I could talk about my baby. I could talk about my job. Neither are super exciting to anyone except me!
I think that trying to blog has made me realize that I don't have anything going on in my life except my baby. I love that little guy more than this post could even begin to explain. Seeing him smile and hearing him laugh make every day worth living. That being said, I know that I have to live my life for myself...not just for my son. I have to figure out what is going to make me feel like a whole person...what will personally fulfill me?
The quest begins.
I guess I really don't feel like I have anything to say that would be of interest to anyone. I could talk about my baby. I could talk about my job. Neither are super exciting to anyone except me!
I think that trying to blog has made me realize that I don't have anything going on in my life except my baby. I love that little guy more than this post could even begin to explain. Seeing him smile and hearing him laugh make every day worth living. That being said, I know that I have to live my life for myself...not just for my son. I have to figure out what is going to make me feel like a whole person...what will personally fulfill me?
The quest begins.
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